For seven months I have experienced my life in a way that has opened the doors to life's mysteries, and I will forevermore look upon the world with different eyes.
From the microcosm to the macrocosm, everything that was taught in Consciousness Studies was brought back into relationship with the human being. We looked at salt, sulfur, and mercury constitutions in the earth's crust and in plant life as tools for understanding our own human constitutions. We discovered ways to adjust or transform our constitutions in order to bring oneself into greater harmony by looking at the plant kingdom and studying what plants and flowers bring about certain humors, and to apply those to oneself for balance. We worked with color in a similar way--first by seeing how color is affected by light and how our eyes perceive color, and then by examining the effect that color has on our soul life. We studied the bones of animals and then human bones, and saw how they metamorphose from the creatures walking on four legs to humans walking upright. We explored various artistic mediums, which helped me find out which ones support and nurture me: is it charcoal drawing, sculpting, the colored pencil drawing of plants, or perhaps even the creating of actual plant displays? I was also able to explore how different forms of movement satisfy me: is it active games or forming physical gestures? How am I supported to be my very best harmonious self in each and every moment?
To spend seven months studying 'myself' from so many differing views has expanded my awareness of myself and my constitution and my structure, but most of all it has expanded my awareness of my inner being. By looking so closely at so many of my ever-changing physiological characteristics in relationship to everything else, the doorway was opened to then explore my ever-changing inner life. What affects me and in what way? What are my patterns? What would I wish to do differently or better? And what are the outer conditions that may help support these changes?
